I’m not going to lie,
coming back to blogging has made me feel a little nervous. I went away for what felt like a valid
reason…at least at the time. Now, I
think I went away for all the wrong reasons.
Even though all the reasons were wrong, my mind is still trying to
convince me that they were, and still are, good reasons. I’m choosing to not listen to all of that,
and I’m choosing to walk back into blogging.
To come back into the
blogging world, I think that it is only fitting that I let you all in on what
my life looks like right now! There is
so much going on, and taking the time to write about it is going to be really
good for me.
Last time I was here
I was working on my Bachelor’s degree in Elementary Education. This past May, I graduated with my Bachelors
in Elementary Education. I am now a
licensed K-6 educator. I’m not teaching
this year, though. I applied to a few
different schools, but I chose to not pursue a teaching job first thing. I know that this sounds super crazy, because
let’s be honest, I’m twenty-three years old and I should have a “big girl” job
now, right?
Nope.
Instead of getting a
full-time job first thing, I decided to get a TA job and continue my
education. I am currently working in a
CDC classroom with intermediate aged kids (4th grade through 7th
grade). I decided on this route because
I feel like God has called me to work with children with disabilities. Before I took to steps necessary to become a
Special Education Certified teacher, I wanted to spend a year in that setting
to make sure I was where I was supposed to be.
What I have discovered so far is that I love CDC, and I think that if
working with special needs children is what I’m supposed to do, I think
I’m supposed to be with CDC.
As far as continuing
my education is concerned, I am working on getting my Masters in Education –
Curriculum and Instruction. I knew that
going into this program would mean that I did not want to be a first
year teacher while doing Masters level school work. All of you out there doing that or that have
done that, high five to you. I wish that I had confidence in myself enough
to believe I could handle that. That is
impressive!
I left blogging
because I thought that I didn’t need the writing outlet in my life
anymore. I didn’t think that I should be
blogging when I have so much going on in my life. I didn’t want to blog because I was “too
busy” to keep up with it...which is total junk.
Too busy looks like napping, binge watching Netflix, and letting a food
addiction begin.
Speaking of which,
towards the end of December, I began to lift weights and work out. Over the past two and a half years, I’ve put
on thirty-pounds. Holy Moses. I decided I couldn’t handle that
anymore. I was miserable, I hated my
body, and I was so embarrassed of myself.
So far, I’ve lost seven pounds. I
have been working out anywhere from five to six days a week. I lift weights, I attend BodyPump at my gym
once or twice a week, and I run. It has
been an incredibly hard journey, and some weeks I feel like nothing has
changed, I hate my body, and I succumb to food addiction. Some weeks I love my body and I want to
flaunt the success I’ve made. It is a
journey, but my health is a gift I can give myself that will always be worth
it.
With this new season
in my life with this blog, I’ll be writing about whatever is on my heart
instead of trying to schedule certain posts on certain days of the week. I may write a lot about the process I’m going
through with working out. I may write
about my job and what I’m experiencing and learning. I may write about nothing in particular. I may write about a topic God places on my
heart. I won’t know until I open my
computer and get started.
I’m excited to start
this journey over again with everyone. I’ll
write more soon!
xoxo
S.Graciebelle
